A bad couple of months

In February I found out I was pregnant. Well it turns out I'm not. It was actually a chemical pregnancy (meaning I had the pregnancy hormone in my system but the pregnancy didn't take) so it was a little upsetting to know that I wasn't anymore. On the bright side, at least I wasn't several weeks along. I realized I wasn't pregnant a couple days after I found out so it wasn't what people usually have like a miscarriage.

Just a week or so ago we found out we were going to buy our first townhouse. It was pretty amazing and we were really excited about it. However, just a few days ago we found out that the program we were on with the mortgage company had a new guideline to follow regarding our loan and payment plan. Because of the new guideline we would have to pay an additional $150 a month making our payments be around $1450 a month. My parents offered to help us out every month by giving us the extra $150, but I told them no. I thanked them and told them I really appreciated the offer, but I didn't want to take money from them and I wanted to do this on our own. I felt in my heart that what's meant to be is what's meant to be.

To be honest I enjoy living at home again. I don't like living out of boxes, but I like having my parent's come home and helping with Alexa. Alexa loves her Grandparents and I love how happy it makes her to see them everyday. Plus Matthew and I are able to get things done at the same time so it's nice to have our own time to do things again. 

All and all things were upsetting and rocky, but I'm keeping an open mind and whatever happens happens. Who knows....... maybe the next move isn't to buy a house, maybe it's time for Matthew to get a new job. Either way I'm just very thankful to have the wonderful people in my life that make me smile and laugh when the bad stuff happens. So to everyone that knows me, thank you for everything!

xoxo